It has not been an easy journey for Rebecca these past three plus years. Sometimes as parents we ache more for what Rebecca is going through then for what we ourselves have gone through. How can we help her? What can we do to make her feel happy again? How can we teach her how to work through her struggles and recognize what she is feeling and how to cope? So many times I have hugged a sobbing girl and felt my heart breaking as I feel so unable to help her.
When Rebecca came to me and told me that she would like to do a presentation to her class about James I at first did not act upon it, thinking she would likely change her mind in a day or so. But when she mentioned it for the third time, and that she would like to do it on November 23rd I decided it was time to take her up on the idea. Before hand I did talk to her about whether she thought she would be able to do this presentation without "breaking down". She wanted to do it and was sure she'd be okay.
So on November 23rd, three years after James passed away, Rebecca presented her brother James to her class. She did an excellent job and only during the last paragraph did she struggle a bit, but she held it together. What an accomplishment for our girls!! While she may struggle, I am proud of how well she did and that she would even take the effort to try something she knew would be difficult.
We did the same presentation Marietta did last year (last years post) and brought in some of the medical items we had - oximeter, stethescope, nasal prongs. Rebecca also took along the book James' Story which she had just received her own copy of that morning.
After school we made a trip down to the cementary so the girls could each lay their rose at James' stone. This year the girls did watch the movie Babe, something they were unable to handle last year. At first Rebecca did not want to, but we convinced her to give it a try and she did well until the last bit of the show. The girls also spent some time rumaging through James' memory box and talking about the things they remember. While it can be difficult to recall and refresh these memories it is also good.
While we know that Rebecca is not through her journey of grief and may never be, we are happy to see signs of progress in the last half year. We were especially thankful to see that after James' "anniversary" she was able to bounce back, the next day being happy and energetic, instead of being dragged down and miserable. This is definitely a sign of improvement for which we are very thankful! We continue to pray the Lord will grant her more healing and strength to cope with life as it comes to her.