"Was it really only a year ago???" "Has a year already gone by??" We feel a mixed emotion of both of these.
A year ago today was our last full day with James and the last day that the girls seen James. The girls were able to come to the ICU and the Palliative Team tried to make it a special and memorial day. One of the things they attempted to do was to make a mold of the kids hands. Unfortunately the mold did not turn out and so it's just been stored in a box. Since James wiggled his fingers three of his fingers did not work. The mold is very crumbly and easily breaks. One of Rebecca's fingers has already fallen off and each time we take it out more little pieces fall apart.
Although the mold did not turn out nice and we wish we had just done a hand print of James' hand, it is still very neat to look at it as it is very detailed, right down to every line, crack and crevice on the hand. You can also see Rob's thumb underneath James' hand as Rob tried to hold his hand in the molding stuff and keep it still. There wasn't much life left in James but he was still able to put up a fight if he didn't like something ... and he wasn't at all happy about the idea. Poor little guy!!